Moving Forward

I have started meditating again since my last post. I will post a more complete recount of those journeys later. However, I felt the need to document some key information I was given tonight.

Tonight, Cerridwen sent for me. I can't say that the conversation was reassuring, but that is not Her way. She tells the Truth and that is why She is feared and seen as ugly by most creatures. Tonight I saw Her fully. She is truly beautiful if you know how to look at Her, but it is easy to be distracted and repelled by many of the things that surround Her.

At one point, She opened Her cloak and a number of crows flew out of it. One of them came to me. She gave me one of her crows as a familiar and it marks me as a "Truthsayer". This is not a blessing or curse or a gift, it is simply who I am and the crow is there to make sure that I am not able to hide who I am from myself or from others. The crow also marks me as one with understanding of Sacred Law.

She also told me that I am a Dark Elf. I do not know exactly what that means, but I instinctively knew that it did not mean I was evil. My brief online research has confirmed that in Norse folklore, Dark Elves could be either malevolent or benevolent. They are a class of elves that live underground and have possibly been confused with dwarves since they are often miners as well. This makes sense to me since my grandmother told me that my grandfather's people were elves who worked in the mountain mines. I had never come across any references to elves and mining until tonight, but I instinctively knew what my grandmother had told me was true.

Since Cerridwen made a point of giving me this information about myself and making sure that I knew it to be True, I am sure that this is somehow important for me to know and understand.

Curious.

Drifting

My silence on this blog has been a direct reflection of the lack of energy I have been putting into my spiritual development lately. With so many changes occurring in my life, I sometimes feel that it is more than I can do just to keep my head above water. Even so, I am very aware that there are many streams merging together in my life right now. Since I am not able to see what lies ahead, I am merely being content to drift and let the Universe do what it will to set my course. I still feel the presence of the Deities within me and around me so that makes my job of trusting their wisdom much easier.

I do think, however, that the time for drifting will soon be ending. I saw an owl on my way home from work last week. This was the first time I have ever seen one in the wild and I know it was a sign from Halphred (my owl spirit guardian) that I need to visit him in the OtherWorld soon.